Hello, hydrangeas, and a little honesty...

                
Hello all! How have you been and did you enjoyed your summer? I hope it has been a wonderful one for you! :)

Confession:

I haven't posted for almost two months and my visiting has been on the slim to none side...I feel like the worst blogging friend on the planet! It wasn't at all intentional, or I would have done a "taking a break" post...Have you ever noticed that the longer you go without blogging, well, the longer you go without blogging?

With two enormous home projects in the works, it has been a little on the crazy side around here! 

My husband and I now know for certain that we can only handle one big project at a time! It doesn't matter if one is mainly his at this point {the chicken coop that has turned into more of a house} and if one is mostly mine {the wood plank flooring in the girls' room}!

I so hope you can forgive me the lack of visits and the absence of posts! I have missed visiting you all and seeing how you are doing. I realized I am the most happy when I am able to visit and write...





Now there is a bright and shiny silver lining to this summer, though: it has given me pause, time for reflection on what I am doing and where I am going.
 I know, I know. Time for reflection during a busy time seem like they wouldn't go together, but strangely, they did!

 And this is what I came up with:

 What I am doing: everything except for taking a little time to refresh each day.

Where I am going: in circles???

I am a mother of three children {two of them teenagers} and a wife to a wonderful husband. It was and is my biggest dream come true, the thing I most wanted, and I am holding onto it with both hands. 

I have realized, though, that when I was younger dreaming this big dream of having a family, I forgot that I would have other {smaller} dreams and a deep desire to create!

I feel like I need to do something about this dreaming and creating!

And what to do with those persistent dreams and plans tucked away safely for maybe someday? 

Maybe someday is now....what am I waiting for?

To answer my own question, I am afraid of doing any project or endeavor that would be hard on my family, because they are my first priority besides God. I don't to make a mistake and get myself in over my head.

Secondly, I have guilt. Loads and loads of it. And it is terribly hard for me to take time for myself without it joining me! ;) 

Does anyone relate to this?

I think I am {slowly} figuring things out...

So I have decided to start. To start truly working on these dreams instead of just thinking maybe someday or another day...A couple of these I shared a while back, regarding the changes I wanted to make with this blog, including a new name! 





I will be back next time to share these ideas with you, which I have to admit scares me a little! You don't scare me, don't get me wrong! It's the putting myself out there that makes me feel like it's my first day in eighth grade at a new school all over again, and let me tell you, that was frightening! ;) So I'm thinking compared to that, this should be a piece of cake, right?

Thank you, dear friends, for listening to me spill my heart, and have a lovely Thursday! :)

See you again soon...{really!}

Much love,

Jenni